You know who you are

As the title states, this post is for you.

It's been awhile since we last talked. Have you been alright during this while? No doubt I do visit your site at times.
I missed you as a friend.
We're not on talking terms right now. But I hope we can be, in the future.
I know mentioning about what happened, is probably something you don't wish to talk about or even remember. I didn't plan to be on close terms with you. I never planned for all this. I'm sure you know it just happened, we talked & became good.
I'm aware that you didn't see that coming. & am also aware of what could have happened.
I knew the situation will get very horrible if you were to find it out yourself. By that time, you'd think I'm a fucked-up selfish slut. I confessed to you because I wanted to try saving the situation to make it not end up that you will have the fucked-up selfish slut impression about me.
I don't cover & deny what I did, I admit to whatever I do.
I didn't know what else I can say that night as i knew, you'll tell me that you had nothing to say to me anymore.
I know apologising isn't necessary at all as it won't save the situation or even rewind time. But I still did.

If you're reading this, I hope you can feel my sincerity in this post. I know even if we get back on talking terms, there's no trust left. I totally understand that.
I did treasure our friendship, always will. If you ever need any one to talk to.., I will always be here for you. Just, give me a sign that we can talk again.
Take good care of yourself, my dear friend.