I am so bored in HIS class now. System issues but I'm trying to concentrate.
Oh well, dinner with girlfriends at Mhotel later then club at either Rebel OR Powerhouse.
& Saturday, my piano theory exam in the morning & pub at night with Punehto.
& Sunday, will be going for prayer at Mandai in the morning then a meal with family but ain't sure Lunch OR Dinner.
HEEEEE HAPPY HAPPY!!

But before that, I wonder what are the guys planning to do later.... :S

18th birthday. Packed weekends. GREATTTTTTT. But my $$$ will be drained completely. It is already drained.
But on a second thought, I'm going to gain calories throughout this weekend.
Nevermind! I'm going to chiong running next week!!

Life's good.
& finally, new life starts with goodbye to the past.
Yes, you lead your life while I lead mine. We do not owe each other anything anymore. Neither will I ever, have any affection for you again. Because I realised, you're not worth it. You want you come. You don't want, don't fucking lead me on. I'm not your toy whereby you can just chuck me whenever you like it. This, destroyed the trust/faith I have for you.
So, goodbye to you.

OK I'M GONE :)

/Edited.
Ok, no pub. Just a normal dinner with them :) I like!
& THANK YOU E26C FOR THE CAKE & IT REALLY SHOCKED ME. HAHAHA.
LOVELOVE!

I don't know what to blog.
It has just been school school work work friends friends family family.
I don't even have the time to replenish 10hours of sleep at least once!!
Oh well, I really have nothing to blog. Probably I won't be blogging daily from now on :)

On a side note, mama & papa is getting me N97! :)))
& turning 18 in 3days time!! :>

For the 1st time, I'm uploading this here. & it will be the final time.
For the 1st time, I've decided to let you/this go after much hesitation.
Thank you for those sweet & happy memories we had even though it was a short 2 months.
You definitely left an impression in me & probably I did too. Who knows?

I still remember how happy I was when you texted me just a smiley face & how I was jumping around in the storeroom when I was working in M)phosis that time. & I knew I was really in love with you from then on. Even till this current moment, I still love you.
But I'm letting go.
Things seem to have shown that we'll never be together again.

I hope you'll take care of yourself in the future & try not to over stress yourself.
I'm lost for words. So, that's all I've got to say.

REST

I CAN FINALLY REST AFTER THESE 3 HECTIC DAYS.
SO DELIGHTED.
MY MOM TOLD ME THAT SHE BOUGHT A CHANEL BAG JUST NOW. WTH? WHEN MY BIRTHDAY IS JUST DAYS AWAY -.-
FACIAL TOMORROW.
OK NOTHING ELSE. BYE.

Hilton _|_

1st & last time I'll ever work with Hilton.
Why so? I'll explain why.

1st: Wasn't organized at all. Fine, I don't complain on that. I'll just go with the flow.
2nd: The school told us that it was an ION opening event. But 2 groups was sent to elsewhere. For my group, we were sent to a Mercedes Benz event at the Keppel Bay instead, for the launch of the new S series of the car. Fine, it was rather prestigious & managed to get a glance at the car. (Very chio indeed).
3rd: We were all starving when we were serving the drinks/food. If we didn't just go into the pantry to have our dinner, we never will get to eat.
4th: At the end of the event, the person-in-charged named *J told us in our face that WE screwed up the event. & sent us back to the hotel WITHOUT even a word of THANKS.

Thinking that we screwed the event up? Why don't you think that maybe it is you guys that didn't organise it properly? Like, not getting enough bottles of white wines/champagnes.
Fine, maybe we were not able to do/serve up to expectations but you got to consider the fact that we were not briefed on anything of this earlier. It was only a last-minute briefing. Then how the fuck do you expect us to do it well? So what if we all had F&B experience? Well, at least the other F&B won't put the blame on us & tell us in a better tone what we've done wrong.
& letting the females head back to the hotel whereas the males are to stay back longer to help pack.
What *J did was, tell the males to clear/pack this & that AND he just stood there to smoke.
WTF IS THIS? You are damn fucking gay please. You're not a man at all. Even if we are to do all the shit jobs, at least have some courtesy to treat us better. Prick faggot.
Probably not Hilton _|_. I think _|_ should be to *J. You should just go & get bang by a car.

I'd rather work for Ritz Carlton & with no pay. At least they are very organized & they treat us alot better.

On a happier note, we did gain something there. KEPPEL BAY'S VIEW WAS SOOOO PRETTYYYYY. Especially outdoors at night! & the cakes were gooood, the cheesecake & hazelnut!

I am so physically tired & I'm in class now & am hungry & work at 7pm later.

Which room has no doors?

If the above conversation is able to enlarge, please read the joke that Tam Jiande told me.
He is the Joke-Maker. If there's an award on this, he'll definitely be the champion.

Nevertheless, he is one of my friends who helped me the most during my depressed period.
Someone who tried his best to advice me, tried to cheer me up, helped me by analyzing my troubles.
He can be one of my long-term best guy friend, really. But this bugger always says that I'll have my other friends to do the job & he is just 'nothing'.
"PLEASE LOH. YOU NOT MY FRIEND MEH."
Joke-Maker + Bugger indeed.
I really thank you, Tam Jiande. You're really a good friend of mine :)

& also, I won't forget those that helped/visited me.
Example:
Girlfriends who were there to hear me pour all my sad issues & spending some time with me, consoling. & felt sorry for me to the extent of almost tearing too.
Punehto Chips who came down to Yishun to keep me company even though TY met with some hard issues as well.
*TY, let's try not to tear again when we're in public ok? Hahahhaha.
Bistro colleagues who were there to make me feel better even though not all of them know what I was caught up & troubled with. There's just too much attachments there to quit.
Poly mates such as E26C were there for me too. Seeing them everyday can really make you happy because of all the stupid jokes & craps that we always have.

Really guys. If any of you reads this, I want you all to know that you're all a part of me now.
I love you guys.

On a side note, I'm really worn out today. Why so? I'll tell you why.
First, school & it is already enough to wear you out.
Second, rushed to AMK post office to collect my parcel.
Third, met CP at Bishan for gym session.
Fourth, went to have yong tau foo for dinner at the Food Junction straight after gym.
Fifth, my piano lesson which I was late for.
Sixth, rushed to buy pens/stockings (For Hilton Banquet).
& finally! Went home!!

Whereas for tomorrow? I'll be leaving class early like 315pm, with some of my classmates for a Hilton Banquet & it is just for 1 day. 4pm-11pm. $6.50/hour.
Not bad already lei! I wasn't paid at all for my F1 Ritz Carlton at all!!!

& I will have to go school on Friday no matter what. & after which, I've work at 7pm-12am.
Then on Saturday, 12pm-10pm BISTRO. & not forgetting, I think 1 of my facilitators & some E26C mates will be heading down to Bistro for meal & chill session too. So, OF COURSE I SERVE THEM WHAT.

This entire week, is tedious for me.
& I have my practicum UT 1 next Wednesday! Oh my..
How time flies..

Go away. Stop haunting me.
Leave me alone..

I just can't help it whenever I pass by the playground, stadium near my block.
Or even, to AMK/Marina Square/Esplanade.

Back to work lah.

Accounting !@#$%^&

Only the 3rd lesson of Accounting & it literally killed me today.
Considering the fact that I've got no POA foundation, I managed to complete the work assigned. But with the help of my beloved classmates (E26C) of course.
Today, it made me speak much vulgarities than usual.
I'm a person who gets stress very easily.

& today's interview was ______. Bloody nervous before entering the room because my DHHM programme chair was inside as well, & not forgetting a video camera. Me & my other 2 pretty classmates & 2 other selected people were nervous as well. Who won't!? I wonder how the result will turn out. Awww....

Speaking of which, this is the 3rd week of school. Time is passing REAL fast when school started. I cannot believe how fast time is going. But the good thing is, it keeps me busy. & considering the fact that I'm packed this entire week. Especially after school Thursday & to Hilton for a banquet job till probably, 12am? & it's a must to come school the next day no matter how tired I am. Just have to spam myself with lots of coffee & I'll be fine. Says SOH.
Plus, I've to work 7pm-12am on Friday. & 12pm-10pm on Saturday.
So, the only time that I can sleep all I want will be Sunday.
Uhhh, I've got nothing to say about that though.

& AFTER this week, my birthday will be on the Saturday. Like WOW, time is really fast that I'm not prepared at all. Club club club!
Funny thing, I may club in future but I won't drink. Good sign. No? Yes?

A little update, my mom + Cousin & me signed up for Yoga!!!
My brother will be leaving on the 16th December or so, to Canada for 4 months.
There may be an overseas trip with my course & facilitators but nothing has been confirmed though.
My mom & Auntie may be going overseas by just themselves.
Oh man, why is everyone leaving...

Lastly, WHEN IS MY ACCOUNTING TEXTBOOK ARRIVING. I NEED IT NOW NOW NOW.

Accounting now.
Bye.

Just some photos taken on Friday.
The rest are in FB.

Zouk's music sucked. Or probably I wasn't in that type of genre.
Phuture's was the sex. & probably because it was my virgin time so I don't know what is great music. But the music was really the blast & it was super packed.
& I didn't drink because I loathe the taste of alcohol now. Beer was easier for me to gurp down though. LOL.

It feels like I haven't been home for a long time but it's just 1 night.
A night, I really enjoyed myself. With blasting music, great company, getting high on the dance floor. Now I know how Clubbing is. & I like it. In fact, I want to go again.
There has been more than 1 plan made with friends on Clubbing.
Clubbing addict? No.
Probably just a frequent OR occasional. But Occasional is the wiser choice.
However the annoying part is that I've to use my friend's IC to get in. I want 31st to arrive fast. God damn it. I hate this type of fear feeling.
On a side note, it helped me to forget about things & I feel better.

I only had 3 hours of sleep before I went for work today. & I am looking very 'zombie-like' now. Plus luckily I had to work till 6pm today instead of 10pm because of some cock-ups. But I'm grateful for it! Hee!
I was practically half-asleep half-awake when I met my family in Town & shopping around Taka. So, I'll go hit the sacks now.
& my mom found out that I'm still doing online shopping because she saw the Registered article paper on my table. Oh no...

I just realised that I have appointments everyday after school this week. Holy...

Stop being Emo! You know clearly that he doesn't even give a fuck about you anymore. So why should you even feel so affected by it!
Fuck. I feel so fucking weak. God damn it.
Sam, just stop... Don't tear.

Exercising seems to be the only way to distract my mind away from this.
GYMMING LATER.

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER :/


I think this song is the interpretation of what my heart feels right now.

Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry
All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohh

You're not sorry no no ohh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

You're not sorry, no no ohh


I'm way past depressed stage & am moving on to happy stage.
When I say it's over, it will really be over.
Since you're not being honest & choose to avoid me, then I guess there's nothing I can do because I've done all that I can throughout this 1 year+. Think about it. How many times has it been when you just left me in the heartbroken stage?
I just hope that you will soon realise that avoiding isn't going to help anything at all. & when you have a whole new r/s in the future, please be more honest & share your thoughts to the future girl.
You can dislike/hate me after reading what I typed but I guess I can't really be bothered anymore as I've used up all my strength to salvage it. Just think on what do you really want before taking action.
So, I'm giving up. If this is the outcome that you want, well congrats. You got it.
But just remember that I love you.

I just need more time to handle this & by then, I'll be a new & happy person again.

I'm going to head out on Friday night & enjoy myself TTM. Who cares about turning 18 or not?
I reckon I'll be looking quite zombie-like when I work on Saturday. Well, whatever!!
See you girls.
I have a sudden urge to play Mahjong.

On a happier note, I'm losing weight!! YAY!
Plus, I am not falling sick. Double yayness.

Another sweet thing :)))

It is not the time for me to fall sick. DO NOT FALL SICK SAM.

Another one yet! Thank you Peishan! You all are really sweet!
Just a small little drawing can make me happy & feel better.
Really, it's cuteeeee :D

On a side note, I don't want to fall sick! I cannot afford to fall sick!
Stop sneezing!

The more I look at this, the more touched I feel even though it is just a small little cute cartoon on a piece of paper.
Thank you Miss Mok! Even though you drew in less than 2minutes, but still I really appreciate it. & girl, I don't want you to even put any blame on yourself. You won't be involved in this. So, please don't alright?
I will be fine.
I hope..

I can't sleep even though I am god-damn tired.
My mind isn't listening. It is just, revolving around a solution.

I'm glad to have friends to hear my troubles.
You all, are my pillars of strength. Without you all, I don't know what I'll do.
Really, I feel like hugging each & every one of you all right now.
Thank you all for being with me. I love you all.

& Yuan, we'll be able to do this together. We must. Girl power! Haha!

Back to school tomorrow. The thing which fears me is, what if I'm being questioned about it.
What will I say? How will I react? How am I suppose to reply?
I hope I can handle my emotions. I was practically "dying" when working during Friday & Saturday.
That particular sentence or that 3 words (To be specific) hurts so bad to the extent that I will have the urge to tear every single time I read or say it out.
Especially when I'm alone or at home. I need to be out everyday.

This entire matter, is just very ironic.

Another thing to add on, I've been drinking alot of water recently but I'm having a sore throat now. So weird.

I need to be around people. I really need to.
At this very moment, MIA seems to be the best way for me.
I won't be facing questions on what happened in this way.

I seem to have lost my appetite over everything.

........
It just has to get more & more numb.

I always thought I'll never be with you again.
But I thought wrong.
We are together :)))))))

1st Day of Semester 2

Accounting wasn't as simple as I thought. I swear, I was almost overwhelmed by it today.
I realised that Semester 2 modules are not as "easy-going" as compared to Semester 1.
I guess this is when total concentration comes into place.
But with all that pressure from the "upper management", it isn't going to be fun. They've become much more stricter than before.
I know we're the 1st batch of DHHM students from RP. But must it be till this extent? Well, I suppose it has to be. It must be.
That's how competitive the society is. Or rather, Singapore.

& my legs feel so "jelly-like" after all that running.
I'm starving now so Imma go have my dinner now & revise aftermath.

NEW MOON

I CANNOT WAIT. I'LL TELL MY MOM TO BOOK THE TICKETS ON THE VERY 1ST DAY THAT IT IS RELEASED OR THE SNEAK PREVIEW.
GV, GOLD CLASS. How does that sound? :>

Back on routine

My usual routine will be back this coming Monday.
School work gym, etc. I think I'll be more busy & definitely more worn out this semester.
Work hard & minimize using the chance of skipping lessons! My GPA is shit.

Whereas for work, my usual schedule on Friday nights & Saturdays are back.
& I guess the issue on me not knowing that I got to work on Friday night, it shouldn't be too big of a problem. Spoke with Mr.Han about it though he was rather grumpy at the start of his shift.
I have to admit that he is quite a good person to talk to relating to the hotel industry.

I am contemplating on what to do on my actual birthday! I know clubbing is for sure. I already have 2 groups of friends that wants me to go.
First, me & Juliet & girlfriends! Another is with work colleagues!
While the other cliques, nothing is said yet so..... Please don't blame me if I can't make it on my actual birthday ya! I still love you all & will try to make time. But do understand that I've got school too :)))
There's still my family & Poly mates. I don't know how to plan because it's during school period but luckily my birthday falls on a Saturday. Totally relieved by that though.
I really need to plan soon. Like, really dead soon.
But just on a negative note, I've my piano theory exam in the early morning on the actual day.

Another thing to add on, I'm moving on once & for all. This huge burden has been lifted off & gone. A little more time & I'll be totally over it. I can finally feel happy from the inside & not fake a smile on the outside :)))))

I think I'm signing off now as I'm going with my parents in the morning to book air tickets for my brother who is flying off on the 16th December to Canada for 4months regarding his Uni studies. 4 MONTHS!! :(
I'd love to go overseas to continue my studies!

Ah bye!

Back at Blogger!

I'm back at Blogger! Feel more comfortable here or LJ rather than Tumblr.
School is starting in 3 days' time. I feel rather prepared for it.
& I think my sense of responsibility is becoming bad to the extent that I don't call my workplace to check on the current week schedule for my shifts.
Yes, I didn't know I had to work today till Huixian called me. Had to fake an MC that I do not like. I feel bad, really bad. I'll be honest to my manager tomorrow if I see him.
I am so sorry Bistro.....

I took a personailty test. Here is my results:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


I feel this, rather true!
Try it humans!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx