Tonight's weather is chilly & relaxing. I like it.
I did my usual exercise, running 5 rounds around the circumference of the stadium.
When I was done, I took a rest by walking around.
& unknowingly, I wasn't able to stop my legs. It just walked to where my mind & heart wanted me to be.
It took me to the spot where we sat & talked, which took place more than a year ago.
I sat at the exact location, with my iPod Touch playing on shuffle.
It played all the songs that reminded me of you.
Everything flashed back to me. I couldn't help it. My legs just won't move away. My entire body just doesn't want to move.
& my eyes became watery but there wasn't any tears flowing at all. Probably there isn't any more tears I could let it out.
There I was, sitting there like an idiot. But luckily it was dark, so I reckon those passer-bys didn't see my facial expression.
Then I wondered, what is in you that can make me not forget you so badly? I really wondered why.
I've lost all faith & hope to think that it will happen again.
I know after that matter, you will not dare to talk to me like how we used to. Or even if things may have a chance to reconcile, I think you won't dare to tell me.
Confidence is what you're lacking, isn't it?
Well, I can't force you to do what you don't agree upon. This is in you, your character.

After 45minutes to an hour of being in deep thoughts, my body finally responded & I went home.
All I needed was, to be alone.
& I feel better.