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I seriously hate the feeling of being used OR seems to be.
I hate guys with no sense of responsibility when they ought to have but yet, they rely on girls for help.
What makes you think that I'll be so free to inform you on the latest updates? I'LL BE AT SYDNEY FOR GOD'S SAKE.
So does that mean I'll have to rush & check on the emails right after I'm back in Singapore?
Did you ever spare a thought for me? Have you ever considered if I'd be willing to do it, for you?
Maybe we're one of the closest in class, fine then.
However, that doesn't mean I should be getting this type of feeling from you OR treated for granted & assuming that I can do any flavours requested by you. Do you get what I am trying to say?

I chose not to confront you & tell you about this. Because I know in the end, you'll just avoid/ignore or whatever.
Just think if it is beneficial for me to approach you on this. Think on what you will reply me if you happen to know about this.
If you happen to be reading this entry, then come & talk to me about it if you want.

I do not know if you're doing this with an intention. All I know is, this is what I feel now.
Be it if I'm too sensitive or what, well it's starting to get more obvious.
This is what I feel towards you now.
I bet you can sense it too. Only idiots will act like fucking blur-tards.
I don't want to mention names. If you're smart, you'd know that it's you.
This may more or less affect the friendship, I clearly understand that. But if this is what is going to be in the friendship between me & you, then I'd rather not. This isn't how a friendship should be.
Maybe it's just me, or you. Think about how you've been treating me then. If you claim that you know me VERY well, think again.
I never thought that I understand you very well.
At least not well enough for me to self-proclaim you as my best friend.
Probably you said it just to fu yan me OR just for fun? Who knows.

Secondary school friends are still the most reliable ones.
There are some in Poly too, I met a few in class or in ex-classes.
I'm grateful that I met these people <3


I'm going to prepare to meet the guys at AMK for movie & pool now.