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MY BLOG.....

2011-01-19T19:44:00.001+08:00

IS DEAD. HAHAHA

Holidays!

2010-12-27T15:21:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the long hiatus & neglection to this personal space of mine!
But am having too much fun with just 2 mere weeks of holidays which I feel I HAVE TO make full use of!
As you can see, 1 week passed by just at the blink of an eye! How time flies isn't it?
& now, left 1 last week to fully utilise & party! Which I feel I will make use of.
I promise I'll be back with many photos!! :D

I'll be more active on FB & Twitter! So feel free to add me!

Food + Routine

2010-12-19T13:28:00.018+08:00

Just as I said, I'll be updating today! & it's going to be super image heavy!

First things first, meals I had on a random weekend with family.
I remembered it was to get my iPhone 4. We had brunch at Coffee Club, Taka. I feel the outlet at Taka is the only one, edible. The rest of the outlets just cannot make it.

Club sandwich which my mom & aunt shared. Their fries is awesome!

Salmon Caesar!
Only remembered to snap a photo of it when it's almost finished. Doesn't it show how good it taste to the extent I can forget snapping a photo of it when it arrived? :)

Mushroom soup!
I love mushroom soup so much that I can have 2 servings at a go!
The best ones I've tried is Border's Bistro but sadly, they closed it down. So I have to say, I found something similar!

Cousin's lamb something.

I don't eat lamb, never liked it.
& the white flour thing, is really very flour.

Country pie!
This reminds me of the much younger days when my mom will bring me & my bro over to this exact same outlet & we will order this.

I super love Black Pepper.
I can just spam & spam it onto any thing!

It's filled with potato, chicken & veggies inside. Great!

& the best of all, Mud pie!!!
Guess I don't need to say much from the photos? :)

Walked around for Christmas shopping aftermath & then we headed over to Dempsey for dinner at this Thai restaurant! Prices are slightly steep but once you taste the food, it's worth every penny. The most shiok Thai food I've ever tried.

Pork Knuckles!

The remains of it! Look at the fats! I only had the meat, damn tender.
I don't eat the fats, not even in those roasted meat & stuff. I'll definitely tear it apart from the meat.

Pineapple rice!
BEST! But only had a few spoonful as I wasn't really hungry.

Phat Thai!
Better than Thai Express's!

Thai style Kangkong.

Duck's tongue.
I.did.not.try.it.at.all.Not.even.one.bite.

Mango salad.
Very appetizing!

This is the best dish!!!!
Maybe because I love steam fish but the soup is shiok max!! Spicy lovers must try this! Free refills for the soup available too!

Hungry? :D
Enough food. Looks as if I eat alot.

Was at Overeasy on Friday night as the guys had half a bottle of Jack Daniel's unfinished since a week before.
I didn't drink, as usual because I really cannot drink. Don't want to make a nuisance out of myself. Friends who witnessed it before, you'd know what I'm referring about.

This dish of eggs is worth $9....

Love my LB sparkle flats!!

The guys.

& yesterday it was Christmas Shopping with Ling & Chris at Town.
Town was indeed crazily packed like hell. Everyone is buying Christas gifts & all, in almost every shop! That crazy. I also heard from my friend's friend who commented that the crowd in Town is just like how packed it was at ZoukOut. I had crowds when shopping & everyone just bangs here & there like nobody's business. ESP AUNTIES. At times I almost wanted to blow up at them.
Went over to Fareast awhile & happened to know that a friend is inking himself. So went to find him for awhile & I have to admit, the new inking looks nice. I like leh! He doesn't look much in pain, prolly cause he was chewing on gum.
I bus-ed to Thomson Plaza to meet family for dinner. & aftermath HJ, together with YL & YJ came to pick me up & we were off for tau huay at sembawang! Then it was our usual chillout spot, Yishun dam.
Photos now! Lazy to type.

Love Yishun dam!
Heeee. Hopefully more photos in this space for the next few days! :)

Just a question which I've been wondering..
Do people actually have no control over their actions when they are drunk?
OR
Is it that they are drunk but still conscious in their mind & they are doing it because it is something which they want to do it deep down inside? But when they are sober, they revert back to the hard side of themselves.

This is just something that I can't answer it myself. All I know is no matter how drunk one can get, you are still conscious in your mind unless you totally KO & that means you lay flat on the ground, going into your dreams.

Coming soon

2010-12-19T00:07:00.001+08:00

I know it's been almost a week since I blogged!
I'll do it tomorrow! :)

Revised*

2010-12-13T21:33:00.004+08:00

Now doesn't this look better? :D :D

Love this red version more than the purple version!

This is just something I feel I need to state.
Sometimes, I really wished you'd fuck off from my life.
But I know, it'll be on impulse.

Sweet Friend!

2010-12-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

HEHEHE WHAT A SWEET FRIEND I HAVE :):)

Image overload

2010-12-07T21:13:00.013+08:00

I'm back from the busy hiatus!
Currently staying in my auntie's place [which is just next door], as my house is undergoing renovation :> It's rather cramp but what'd you expect with 6 adults living under the same roof? Oh well, I'm fine with it. Makes the house more lively.
Just that my dog seems to be home-sick. He stares out of the gate, towards my house door.
I'll upload the 3D images on the designer's perspective on my upcoming newly renovated home!
As well as, a surprise BBQ birthday celebration of my dear dear good friend, Christopherson :)
Guess I'll stopping typing as I'm kinda lazy to carry on.
I've uploaded the entire album on FB & will just have a few here. Enjoy the images :D

First up, the BBQ birthday at Sembawang Park.

So sweet!

NS BOY!!

Our driver for the day :D

I want to change hair colour! :(

Was looking at the camera!!!!

He makes us busy!

Group photo!

The look alikes!

The girls, missing Ju :(
Ju, please remember that you will always be a part of us even though you're unable to join us. Don't feel forgotten because you will never be.

Individual shots with the limelight!

So man.

Crazy photos.......

A seriously failed jump shot. Fugly ttm. Feel like blacking myself out!!!!

Supposed to be a success photo! But Miss Mok wanted to crop herself out :(

Hahaha fucking retarded!

LOL. Jing looks like she's in serious pain!

Xian had to accidentally cover the flash which results to this fierce/ scary photo of me :)

F Gay!!

Love gatherings like this. But it'd be better if all could make it :)

Next up! A 3D image of my future room!
This is the initial design image that the contractor proposed.
I'm satisfied with it because I have a much bigger wardrobe. However, I requested to change the purple colour to red instead.
I love red. Without red, I will be deprived.
So there you go!

Looks like a shiok only? :D:D
FINALLY DONE WITH THE IMAGES!!

Just something to share. I found a new song today. Currently my new love song. It may not sound nice to whoever is reading this now, but I find the lyrics very meaningful.

I realised something...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
No doubt I miss you, period.
Just quite upsetting that you don't seem to strike a conversation anymore.

'A leopard never change its spots.',
I agree to this phrase
'If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never is.',
But I agree to this phrase more.

Will be back!

2010-12-05T01:34:00.002+08:00

I know I've not been blogging & I JUST started reviving this blog.
Gimme a few days to settle everything down due to house renovation. Have been busy packing my entire house.
Loads of hilarious photos coming soon.
Till then ;D

End of day.

2010-12-01T23:19:00.004+08:00

Summary of today: TIRED TO THE MAX!

Dragged myself to school [as usual]. Very much wanted to save $$ but I gave in & cabbed to school from home.
Class is as mundane! When in RP, there's nothing more you can expect. The only thing you'll hope for is, the facilitator to have the capability to make the class lively. But I got a super naggy one instead. No doubt, she tries to change things & stuff. & no, I will not complain any further, period.

Well after school, it was to AMK to meet up with my bunch of girls! :>
Feels so good to see them! Although 2 couldn't make it due to fever & work. Nevertheless, at least the objective of the meet-up is kinda planned out! & that is for Christmas + New Year's eve.
& no, no group photos, no nothing. Just me, myself being self-obsessed in the toliet.
& we were lucky enough to see something when walking from Jubilee to Hub!

This is what we saw!!
Cool isn't it? How often do we get to see such unusual things everyday.

& like I said, self-obsession in the toliet!
I can't explain why but I think it's becoming a habit!
& my outfit is total Hollyhoque <3

Paired along with my current fave wedges from LoveBonito! :D

[My 2 most loved blogshops!]

Okay, it's really seldom that I will blog how my day went by.
I have to confess something before I head to bed for school tomorrow. & that is, I think I am twitting too much on twitter!

You know who you are

2010-11-30T21:23:00.003+08:00

As the title states, this post is for you.

It's been awhile since we last talked. Have you been alright during this while? No doubt I do visit your site at times.
I missed you as a friend.
We're not on talking terms right now. But I hope we can be, in the future.
I know mentioning about what happened, is probably something you don't wish to talk about or even remember. I didn't plan to be on close terms with you. I never planned for all this. I'm sure you know it just happened, we talked & became good.
I'm aware that you didn't see that coming. & am also aware of what could have happened.
I knew the situation will get very horrible if you were to find it out yourself. By that time, you'd think I'm a fucked-up selfish slut. I confessed to you because I wanted to try saving the situation to make it not end up that you will have the fucked-up selfish slut impression about me.
I don't cover & deny what I did, I admit to whatever I do.
I didn't know what else I can say that night as i knew, you'll tell me that you had nothing to say to me anymore.
I know apologising isn't necessary at all as it won't save the situation or even rewind time. But I still did.

If you're reading this, I hope you can feel my sincerity in this post. I know even if we get back on talking terms, there's no trust left. I totally understand that.
I did treasure our friendship, always will. If you ever need any one to talk to.., I will always be here for you. Just, give me a sign that we can talk again.
Take good care of yourself, my dear friend.

Dilemma

2010-11-29T19:57:00.003+08:00

As much as my heart yearns to connect back to yours
& how stupid I may seem when it regards you
It leaves me with nothing but confusion
Hope I won't do any foolish & impulsive actions

Twitter!

2010-11-29T13:08:00.002+08:00

FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER BABES :D

http://twitter.com/SAAMMMO

& ALSO, FORMSPRING :D

http://formspring.me/Saammo

Solemnization!

2010-11-28T22:41:00.010+08:00

Attended Cousin's church solemnization yesterday at SJI.
I'm not a church person but I like the decorations.
Witnessing the entire solemnization, makes me wanna wed too.

Making their vows...

& as usual, I'll do what I always do :>

Guess where is my entire outfit from! ^^

Today is just a test for myself on a post with photos, to refresh myself with blogspot again?
Prolly can be considered as a proper update? :)

Back on Blogger!

2010-11-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

It's been a good whole 10 months since I touched this account of mine. I bet no one visits here anymore.

That might be a good thing actually because I can get to vent my frustrations here with the least possibility of readers. Well, I'm not expecting much as I'm using Tumblr too.
Tumblr has great photos. & as we know, pictures speaks a thousand words. But I say, it speaks infinity. Depending on how one looks at the picture.
Pictures can be a great way to express your wordless thoughts.

Anyway, just had the urge to start blogging again. But if it dies down, it's not surprising either.
Not really feeling in the right state of mind now.
All I know now is to remind myself consistently that, HE IS NOT MINE. Hence, I should not feel bothered about anything at all.

New!

2010-01-02T22:30:00.001+08:00

I blogged my first post at Wordpress!! Take a look! HEE :>

Saammo

Wordpress?

2010-01-02T18:27:00.001+08:00

I hope you earthlings enjoyed your NYE celebration no matter what!
Be it with your family, friends, spouse or even by yourself!
Make 2010 a much better year than 2009!
Start thinking optimistically! :D

Right now, I'm hesitating if I should move to Wordpress since I've never tried it before! Hehehe!
Imma go try it now & will decide!
Ciao! :D

SO....

2009-12-31T16:00:00.000+08:00

I went to my workplace just now & guess what I found out?
I wasn't given any shifts for this week when I thought I will usually get it. How weird? :/
But oh well, I got to leave there soon anyway.
I'll be expecting a phone call to head down for a talk soon.

IT'S NEW YEAR EVE! SO EVERYONE SHOULD END 2009 HAPPILY!!
BEGIN 2010 ON A NEW NOTE AS WELL!
YEAH!

2009-12-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

AWWWW.
My mom don't let me go club tomorrow!!! :<
So which means, I won't be too tired afterall!

No more club nights from now on!
I hope!

School next week!!

2009-12-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

Just got back home not long ago from Dempsey!
Celebrated cousin's birthday at Jumbo seafood!
Chilli crab + Mantous are the best thing ever!
But somehow I still prefer the Chilli crab over at Thomson Road though.

Anyway, I left a few days to enjoy!
Packed with activities for this remaining week!

Example:

Daytime Wed: Meet up with Poly mates for Town!
Night time Wed: Ladies Night over at Powerhouse!
(Final time to club before I turn into a good girl when school resumes!!)

Daytime Thurs: MJ session over at Wilson's place with Chris & Co!
Night time Thurs: K session over at Top One, Bugis! Starting from 11pm till closing!
(Yes, this is how I plan to spend my New Year Eve!)

Daytime Fri: REPLENISH SLEEP.
Night time Fri: WORK!!

Entire Saturday: WORK WORK!!

(What a nice way to begin my 2010 during the first 2 days :S)

So you see, my remaining week POOF. Just like this.
How cool!

Have been thinking about some things which I think is so crazy. I mean, THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING.
Real or not? I don't know! I don't want to know! Afraid like hell!
I'm not going to disclose anything!
Bye!

Enjoy your remaining 2009 babies! :D
<3

Last Saturday of 2009

2009-12-27T18:02:00.001+08:00

As I said, celebrated my Mom's 55th birthday over at Ritz Carlton, Summer Pavilion :)
Food was really good, as expected.
I had 1 & a half bowl of shark fin's soup because we had an extra serving, causing me to feeling bloated only at the 2nd course of the entire meal. There were a total of 8 courses, mind you. & not forgetting the fact that there was a cake too, so that makes up 9. 9 lei! T.T
Well took some pictures! But mainly on food! Hehe!

I swear, I rotated this but it still turned out this way!

Doesn't look very appetising, does it? They just spam the spring onions!
But all the bones were removed & I mean ALL.
Taste was great! I love fish!

Bean curd & Broccoli & Mushrooms is love too!

She didn't expect the cake at all!

Brother missing!
But a nice dinner with family & relatives :)

Parents fetched me over to Vivo to meet up with Meihua & her friend & we headed to Powerhouse.
& PH didn't disappoint me at all! In fact, it surpassed my expectations!
The music was way better than the 1st time I went & it definitely made up for the past 2 times of failure + disappointing club nights.
& we were on the podium the moment DJ Kzee started his music, all the way till Trance took over for about 30 minutes. Then we went back to the podium again!
We danced all night (With 30minutes of rest only. Haha) , & part of the Remix really made us go '_|_'.
Example: Fire burning. "Somebody call 911!" then the music changed -.- It happened a few times ok!
But overall, the music was really really good! & the unexpected balloons came falling from the top. Really like a party!
We didn't want to get down to the dance floor because out of 10, 9 WERE ALL MALES. SO DAMN CREEPY. Very exaggerating also la!
We did go down to the dance floor but in less than 5 minutes, we were targeted -.-

Legs were aching like hell cause I wore heels T.T
We headed to Macs aftermath & waited till midnight charge was over.
We cabbed home from there then.
Paid $16 for my cab fare. Not very cheap but at least it's alot better than having the midnight charge included.

Well, seems like I found my favourite club :)))))))

Had sleep at 7am. Woke up at 345pm.
My sleepiness is getting to me now.

Christmas Christmas

2009-12-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

Spent Christmas Eve at my Auntie's place! Great food! I super love the Turkey especially! My ang moh uncle is a great cook! But I had the temptation to club again yesterday night :x

& Today? Over at the other Auntie's place for dinner & I don't know what time I'll stay until!
I woke up at 1+pm. I should learn how to wake up earlier!

Tomorrow? MOM'S BIRTHDAY! Over at Ritz Carlton, Summer Pavilion :)
& I think I'll go Powerhouse aftermath! HEEEEEEEEEEE.

Ok, I'll go prepare now.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2009-12-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

I tested myself.
& I give 80% upon 100% to me!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
It will hit 100% soon :):):)

Approx. 1 final week of 2009 & I hereby welcome 2010!
I will make it a happy year! Happy > Sad
YES!

1 DOWN

2009-12-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY TURNED OFF BY REBEL GUYS.

1. ALL SO CUI.
2. SO DAMN DESPERATE.
3. THEY STICK TO YOU LIKE A LEECH.
4. THEIR ACTIONS LIKE FAST-FORWARD MODE.
5. JUST DAMN BLOODY CUI. CMI.

GO THERE REALLY MUST MUST MUST BRING MALE FRIENDS ALONG!
& their Ladies Night is just free entry, no free drinks. Hence, PH is a much better choice! (To me) Got podium somemore!

THEREFORE, I WILL ONLY LIMIT MYSELF TO 2 CLUBS.
PHUTURE & POWERHOUSE.
& 1 THING I MUST TAKE NOTE, I WILL ENTER A CLUB BEFORE 11PM.
I HATEEEEEEE QUEUING TO ENTER.

I think the red ribbon hairband is so cute. HAHAHAHA.

The man woman joined us yesterday night!
Thanks to her, we managed to skip the queue at Rebel & to FINALLY enter a club without jumping again.
We started off with Butter then to Powerhouse & finally Rebel.
Like visit the clubs only.

Cassandra joined us for her virgin club night! Hahahahhahahaa

Lastly, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LAU ZHIWEI.
DON'T SO KP. 18 ALR.
I owe you 2 means I owe you 2 la :)

Ok, family gathering for Christmas later.
LOG CAKE! ^^

2009-12-19T03:36:00.000+08:00

I CANNOT EMPHASIZE ON HOW MUCH I HATE IT WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING & IT IS A RAINY WEATHER!!
And now, it is so bright & sunny but I cannot go tan because I've work at 6pm later. FML.
It always happens.

A thing to take note;
I should always remind myself to not think back. BUT THINK AHEAD.
Teach my heart to do this. Teach it HOW TO NOT THINK BACK.
It isn't listening to me. Even if it does, I know clearly that it is just temporary. It's just a 'mask'. It will still revert back no matter what.
It's not that I don't want to get over, is I can't.
Please slap me, somebody.

I need to go on Wednesday.

Don't stop, make it pop

2009-12-17T17:06:00.000+08:00

I just downloaded DJ Kzee's latest remix.
& that got me very gian to go Powerhouse.
DIE.
WEDNESDAY FASTER COME!!
I'm very addicted to Bad Romance & Tiktok now.

Of all the days, it has to rain today & the sun has to hide when I plan to tanning!
I have to head down to the Post Office to collect another parcel of mine. I wonder when will I stop this.
I'm waiting for my Paps to be back home so I can head to YCK to register for my BTT.
I'll be resuming my usual work days this week which is Friday night & an entire Saturday. Am very sian of work. I always wanted to type the resignation letter but I feel so lazy to do so & do not know how to go about doing so.
1st week of holiday is coming to an end with a blink of an eye. Time is really fast, to the extent that I do not know what is happening.

Zoukout 2009

2009-12-16T13:41:00.000+08:00

One thing to learn, Zoukout was a total failure (in my perspective) & I won't go there ever again.
What's up with Green Day, Linkin Park, Jordin Sparks & worst of all, Miley Cryus during R&B time!?!?
What happened to Pitbull, Sean Kingston, Lady Gaga, Flo Rida, Kesha & etc?
Even though I don't listen to Mambo but I enjoyed it much better as compared to R&B.
Spent a total of 53 fucking $$$ & this is how much I 'enjoyed' after much anticipation.
Well, I'll be hitting Phuture/Rebel/Powerhouse during the holidays. LADIES NIGHT NEXT WEDNESDAY!!
I need real good rocking music & not some boohoo music classified as R&B.
But thankfully, the group I was with made up the night, at least.
& another thing that made up was, I almost had Survey guy's contact but only to miss him throughout the entire night after the 2nd coincidental meet at Stage D. Which was considered much of a pity.
& I remembered me & Charm KO immediately the moment we got a cab.

Changed or not? I don't really bother because people change overtime.
You have, I have. Everyone did.
I don't need you to shape me for who I am.
Able to retain back the friendship we had once before? I don't know & I don't want to know. Remember that it wasn't my fault that things were suppose to have an ending like this.
Your choice, your decision. I don't want to give a fuck anymore. Sick & tired of your nonsense.
'It will be totally over when I say it's over', once I said.
Now I say, It Is Over. & I am much happier. A burden disappeared, forever.
You'll be happier too.

:)))))))))
I will welcome 2010 with a fresh new start & getting to know more & more people.
Resuming school on the 4th Jan 2010 then 6 weeks of school left.
CNY & Melbourne trip.
& finally 6 months attachment. Then 1 final semester left in RP & graduation!
How time flies.

What I need to do now is, shower & head down to the Post Office to collect my parcels that have been lying there ever since last week. Hahaha.
& probably get coffee as well.
I suppose I'll register for my BTT tomorrow instead, since my Paps is on leave! :D

RANDOM

2009-12-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

I realized...,
I hate to be tied down.
I hate the feeling of "suffocating".
I don't like repeating myself.
I dislike being bombarded with many questions.
I dislike it when people are against my decision (Applies to important issues)
So, no r/s at all. At least for a long period of time.

But...., Survey guy WHERE ARE YOU!?!?!?!? AHAHHAHAAHA.

I think my red zone is coming soon.
I should be doing a nice entry on Zoukout or other miscellaneous stuffs tomorrow. Depending on my mood!
HOLIDAYS NOW!!!!!
My other half is leaving me soon......
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TAM JIANDE!!!!!!

The very first thing I got to do is, REPLENISH SLEEP NOW!

2009-12-08T19:21:00.000+08:00

Get out of my head.
I hate having dreams about you.
Waking up, only realising it's all a damn dream.
Dreams will never come true. Neither would you.
There is only hurt, guilt, disappointment, self-centered, avoiding.
You have never taken my feelings into consideration at all.
There will never be a happy ending between us anymore.
We should probably just not see each other.

Yes, I should carry on thinking in this perspective.
I should not even feel a slight heartache at all.
Yes, no heartache.

Mundane? Or rather, not..

2009-12-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog about.
Or rather, I find no reason to post it up here anyway.
Realised I've only been able to express not so personal issues verbally. But when it comes to issues which are personal, I won't speak.
Been keeping things to myself. I don't like it but it's growing on me now.
All I can think of is Piano, Studies, Holidays, Club, Friends, Family, Shopping, Chilling, Coffee & a recent interest: Taking up a part-time Korean language course.
Love is out of my life. I hope, for good.

Well, down to not-so-personal issues:
I've yet to sign up for BTT.
I've yet to type a resignation letter to Bistro due to attachment sake. Not that I really want to quit.
I've yet to get a rather big sports bag for my every-Wednesday use.
I'll go search for part-time Korean course with reasonable rates & suitable location.
I will cut down in online shopping & go 'real-life' shopping.
I need to re-dye & perhaps, trim my hair.
- This is all I can recall now.

A thing I found out about my body. I'll have a fever/feel feverish when I have insufficient sleep such as, less than 5 hours of rest.
This sucks. FML.

Alright, 1 more week till Holidays!!!

2009-12-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

Life gets god damn unfair sometimes even if you put in tonnes of effort into it but instead, it didn't turn out the way you wanted & it backfires & crushes your heart time & time again, leaving you numb to the dreadful hurt feel & therefore, forcing you to lose hope & just surrender & give up totally.

This, I learnt to not put my total effort in Love anymore.
& from this, I will divert the use of my efforts onto other issues.
I really feel like finding something which I can vent all my mixed up emotions, physically.

I need my holidays NOW!!!

2009-11-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

I deleted everything. That includes those in my handphone.
All that is left are those in my laptop. I'm still thinking if I should or not.
High possibility which I will do so.
I will be determined this time round.
For you, I surrender. Officially.

A couple of points to take note now,

On a happier note, my mom is treating me as if nothing happened at all! Which makes me feel extremely guilty! :(
My dad handed me $150 to get myself a new pair of sports shoe as he struck lottery.
My mom is bringing me facial later on & maybe I'll get myself coloured contact lenses too.
& I'll be catching New Moon with my cousin afterwards at AMK Hub later!! I hope it will be good! If it's thumbs up, I'll watch it again!
I realise I have to stop online shopping & go for REAL shopping instead.
Zoukout is coming & Charms has already bought the tickets.
School holidays is coming real quick.
I know I have to resign from Bistro but I ain't sure when to do it because I just can't bear to T.T
I must get a haircut & re-dye of hair colour soon. It's becoming 'grass' -.-
I will enjoy myself to the fullest when holidays are here. & that means, Club!! :D
I will also try to have a night-out decently with girlfriends & Puneh & whoever :)
I had a fever yesterday before I went for work but I still went in the end because I know I won't be able to work there much longer. So I endured with it. & now, I feel better than yesterday! Just that head is hurting a little.
Right now, I want a Cappuccino by my side now. So I'm going for my plans now! :)

2009-11-28T02:06:00.001+08:00

I will wake up from this. Stop all this.
There isn't much left anyway.
I'll be able to do this in a short while.
Letting go of something that has somewhat become a part of you, isn't going to be easy.
But I believe I can do it.
Life still goes on.

It seems to be a bad day for me.
Had a rather major scolding from Mom this morning when I woke up due to poor attendance in school. Which is just a mere 3 days. (It's a huge issue for her)
& heard something during work too. Rather hurtful to hear that he felt that way. (It triggered my emo-ness)
I disappointed my Mom real bad. I need to apologise sincerely to her.
I think I disappointed everyone. I don't know why.
I don't seem to be myself & the way I handle things. I don't know what was I doing. It is just not me.

Now I believe that bad things, comes together.

Give me a month & I'll be a whole new me again.

2009-11-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

OH YAH.
I'LL BE REVIVING MY LIVEJOURNAL TO SELL AWAY SOME OF MY CLOTHES.
MAJORITY WILL BE BRAND NEW. IF NOT I WILL STATE :)
PRICES CAN BE NEGOTIABLE :)

Click on Livejournal at the left-hand side under Favourites!!

2009-11-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

I think I want to get coloured contact lenses! HEHE.
I'm having grey ones on now! HEEEE.
Ok, this is super random.
I'm gone :)

2009-11-23T03:06:00.000+08:00

It's 3.05am now & I'm blogging.

My mom walked in Bistro just when I was about to end work. & what she had in hand? A movie ticket, 2012. At Lido couple of hours ago. Along with my dad, auntie & cousin.
Somehow, I felt warmth & definitely shocked.
It made my day & me, feel happier too.

It was rather emotional during work because I'll be quitting Bistro soon. Either Dec or start of next year.
I really don't wish to think about it but, I have no choice.
The management will not hold part-timers on standby & I totally understand why is that so.
But still, my heart feels really terrible when I have to quit. Really quit. Not there anymore.
Over there, I made a few good friends & they are really good pals.
Ok, I'm feeling the heartache now.

3:12am now. I'll be waking up at 9am afterwards as my family will be heading over to Suntec to get my N97 & to upgrade our broadband.
Yes, I'm not getting the Raoul Limited Edition anymore because it is really not worth it. Think about it. $1K for the phone w/o any plans of course & compared to the normal N97 with plans attached & at $400++.

So, I've been thinking alot. Probably too much & I've somewhat figured how I'm able to express what I really want. I hope it will work. I hope he will understand what I feel. I hope he'll be honest.

This, I got it from my FB. It is really motivating. Exactly on how I need & my understanding towards the word, Love.
"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."
Really, I have to say that I totally agree to this.

Another quote I found when I was reading Seventeen.
"You don't need to give reasons for the things you do -- you just have to do what you want. & sometimes, the thing that seems messed up to everyone else is what's right for you. You have to do it & not be ashamed of it." --Kristen Stewart

On a side note, I'm going to write something which is contradicting.
I am feeling very tempted for clubbing again.

Ok, 3:22am now.
I should crash my bed now.
I'm outta here.

2009-11-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

Do you really think things are to end this way?
Are you certain there isn't the tiniest feel left?
Somehow, I missed you so much after work ended today.
But, I'll endure it.

Quite a number of plans lining up.
Chilli crab with classmates, Steamboat, Sheesha, Liquid Kitchen, Chalet again?
There's more to come, definitely.

I think I need a heart-to-heart night out talk with friends. (I miss HX & Co.)
I think I want to re-dye my hair again.
I'm going facial this coming Sunday. I need to trim my eyebrows.
I'm wondering when can I get my N97... (Not the Raoul version I guess. Too Exxxxx.)
I should quicken my pace in registering for my BTT at YCK before it shifts to Woodlands (zzzzzz)
I need to stock my fridge up with green apples when the day lights up.
My cough hasn't fully recovered.
My clothes has been over-piling...

Did I really change? Sometimes I really wonder.
I do accept positive + negative comments. But I hates it when I try but people still think I'm not trying. If you do not know me well enough like the way I do things, then kindly stfu.
Reflect if you're any better than me. I believe everyone has their own way of doing things.
If you ain't a good friend of mine at all, I don't give a fuck to what you say. You are not in any position to even let me hear your comments. This will make me despise you instead.
*Do note that I am not pin-pointing anyone here. It's just an accumulation of everything I've been through.

Time is passing so fast that I can still remember the beginning of 2009.
Soon, we'll welcome 2010. What lies ahead, we do not know.

Right now, I worn out & I didn't enjoy work.
I'm working 5pm-10pm later. Imma go get some sleep now.

2009-11-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'll give you time. Not like I never gave you enough time before.
When holiday begins, don't say I never did.
You know I did. More than what you need. Probably I gave you too much.
Nothing you say will demoralise me.
I'm bent on having this talk with you.

IIP

2009-11-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

I just submitted my 3 preferred company I'd like to work with during my 6months attachment next semester.

1st: Singapore Airlines
2nd: Silk Air
3rd: Underwater world Singapore

Realised there isn't any choice of Hotels?
Yes, you're not seeing wrong.
I don't plan to work in the Hotel industry.
I hope I'll get into my 1st or 2nd choice. OR either of my 3 preferred choice.
Don't throw me into a Hotel, pleaseeeeeeeee.
GOD. HELP ME.

On a side note, classmates' birthday this week & next week. Hella fun I hope!

2009-11-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

I'm scared. Fucking scared.
Help.

2009-11-15T19:11:00.000+08:00

Been some time since I uploaded photos here.

Charm's 19th birthday yesterday. Powerhouse!
I won't say I dislike Powerhouse, but somehow I still prefer Rebel & Phuture!!
Probably because you had NO space to dance on the dancefloor. The whole dancefloor was like, people trying to squeeze their way through to the other side of the dancefloor. Not a dancefloor anymore. The only available place is on the podium. Kinda shiok to be on the podium though. At least you get to breathe & not suffocate. & with no guys attempting to grind you from behind. That's the thing which disgusts me ttm when clubbing.
Overall, PH was fucking packed, so it wasn't good because of it. & I waved the white flag at 4+am!
But I won't mind going there again because the music is rather rockingzxzxz at some point. It was more of, on & off. Abit sian though.
Anyway, photos!

I will pause nightlife for awhile. I'm getting slightly sian of it & it is just the starting!
Alright, I'm going to go be best friends with Financial Accounting now.
& I will not forget what I need to do. The final last.
I just need awhile of your time. Is that too much to ask for?

2009-11-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

I've done things in which I am not known to do. But this time, I broke my record. I simply cannot be bothered.
I will not be affected by what others say. Be it me, being naive, stupid, the dumbest girl on earth.
I don't care. Because I know, I have not gave all of my strength & effort in this.
Somehow, I feel better than before. For me not being daring enough to admit to what I feel.
Now, I feel it's stupid to not own up & admit what one truly feels. It will be the biggest regret ever.
I need all the support I can from my friends!!

Soon, I'll be done. & I'll be there.
To chase what I want.

I'll get sleep now as my medicine is taking effect on me.
POWERHOUSE LATER. HEHEHEHE.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE CHAN. I'M SO GOING TO MISS YOU NEXT YEAR EVEN THOUGH I ONLY KNOW YOU LESS THAN A YEAR. BUT REALLY, YOU ARE 1 CRAZY BITCH. HAHAHAHA. LOVE YOU MUCH! SEE YOU LATER! <3

2009-11-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

For the 1st time, I'm doing something so crazy that I've never done this to anyone before.
& it will be the last time.
Because it's you, I'll do it.
It's time for me to think for myself. I won't let you call it all shots now. I'm fighting for what I want.
This time round, it's my turn.
Wait for me. I'm coming.

2009-11-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

Tonight's weather is chilly & relaxing. I like it.
I did my usual exercise, running 5 rounds around the circumference of the stadium.
When I was done, I took a rest by walking around.
& unknowingly, I wasn't able to stop my legs. It just walked to where my mind & heart wanted me to be.
It took me to the spot where we sat & talked, which took place more than a year ago.
I sat at the exact location, with my iPod Touch playing on shuffle.
It played all the songs that reminded me of you.
Everything flashed back to me. I couldn't help it. My legs just won't move away. My entire body just doesn't want to move.
& my eyes became watery but there wasn't any tears flowing at all. Probably there isn't any more tears I could let it out.
There I was, sitting there like an idiot. But luckily it was dark, so I reckon those passer-bys didn't see my facial expression.
Then I wondered, what is in you that can make me not forget you so badly? I really wondered why.
I've lost all faith & hope to think that it will happen again.
I know after that matter, you will not dare to talk to me like how we used to. Or even if things may have a chance to reconcile, I think you won't dare to tell me.
Confidence is what you're lacking, isn't it?
Well, I can't force you to do what you don't agree upon. This is in you, your character.

After 45minutes to an hour of being in deep thoughts, my body finally responded & I went home.
All I needed was, to be alone.
& I feel better.

2009-11-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

SUPPER CLUB WAS GOOD.
But we were nua-ing before 2am because of the music & we almost wanted to jump club. HENG WE DIDN'T.
I DIDN'T MANAGE TO DANCE TO POKER FACE BECAUSE THE 2 BABES WAVED THE WHITE FLAG. ONLY LEFT ME, STILL HIGH. HAHAHAA.
OH WELL, I HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO GO POWERHOUSE THIS SATURDAY :)))))
I MISS REBEL TOO. HEEEEE

2009-11-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

I REALISE I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING ALMOST TO A WEEK.
HEHEHEEHE. APOLOGIES AH. RATHER BUSY LATELY!
I'LL TRY TO UPDATE TOMORROW :)
ON A SIDE NOTE, I'M EXCITED FOR THIS COMING SATURDAY!!

2009-10-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

I am so bored in HIS class now. System issues but I'm trying to concentrate.
Oh well, dinner with girlfriends at Mhotel later then club at either Rebel OR Powerhouse.
& Saturday, my piano theory exam in the morning & pub at night with Punehto.
& Sunday, will be going for prayer at Mandai in the morning then a meal with family but ain't sure Lunch OR Dinner.
HEEEEE HAPPY HAPPY!!

But before that, I wonder what are the guys planning to do later.... :S

18th birthday. Packed weekends. GREATTTTTTT. But my $$$ will be drained completely. It is already drained.
But on a second thought, I'm going to gain calories throughout this weekend.
Nevermind! I'm going to chiong running next week!!

Life's good.
& finally, new life starts with goodbye to the past.
Yes, you lead your life while I lead mine. We do not owe each other anything anymore. Neither will I ever, have any affection for you again. Because I realised, you're not worth it. You want you come. You don't want, don't fucking lead me on. I'm not your toy whereby you can just chuck me whenever you like it. This, destroyed the trust/faith I have for you.
So, goodbye to you.

OK I'M GONE :)

/Edited.
Ok, no pub. Just a normal dinner with them :) I like!
& THANK YOU E26C FOR THE CAKE & IT REALLY SHOCKED ME. HAHAHA.
LOVELOVE!

2009-10-28T22:25:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to blog.
It has just been school school work work friends friends family family.
I don't even have the time to replenish 10hours of sleep at least once!!
Oh well, I really have nothing to blog. Probably I won't be blogging daily from now on :)

On a side note, mama & papa is getting me N97! :)))
& turning 18 in 3days time!! :>

2009-10-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

For the 1st time, I'm uploading this here. & it will be the final time.
For the 1st time, I've decided to let you/this go after much hesitation.
Thank you for those sweet & happy memories we had even though it was a short 2 months.
You definitely left an impression in me & probably I did too. Who knows?

I still remember how happy I was when you texted me just a smiley face & how I was jumping around in the storeroom when I was working in M)phosis that time. & I knew I was really in love with you from then on. Even till this current moment, I still love you.
But I'm letting go.
Things seem to have shown that we'll never be together again.

I hope you'll take care of yourself in the future & try not to over stress yourself.
I'm lost for words. So, that's all I've got to say.

REST

2009-10-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

I CAN FINALLY REST AFTER THESE 3 HECTIC DAYS.
SO DELIGHTED.
MY MOM TOLD ME THAT SHE BOUGHT A CHANEL BAG JUST NOW. WTH? WHEN MY BIRTHDAY IS JUST DAYS AWAY -.-
FACIAL TOMORROW.
OK NOTHING ELSE. BYE.

Hilton _|_

2009-10-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

1st & last time I'll ever work with Hilton.
Why so? I'll explain why.

1st: Wasn't organized at all. Fine, I don't complain on that. I'll just go with the flow.
2nd: The school told us that it was an ION opening event. But 2 groups was sent to elsewhere. For my group, we were sent to a Mercedes Benz event at the Keppel Bay instead, for the launch of the new S series of the car. Fine, it was rather prestigious & managed to get a glance at the car. (Very chio indeed).
3rd: We were all starving when we were serving the drinks/food. If we didn't just go into the pantry to have our dinner, we never will get to eat.
4th: At the end of the event, the person-in-charged named *J told us in our face that WE screwed up the event. & sent us back to the hotel WITHOUT even a word of THANKS.

Thinking that we screwed the event up? Why don't you think that maybe it is you guys that didn't organise it properly? Like, not getting enough bottles of white wines/champagnes.
Fine, maybe we were not able to do/serve up to expectations but you got to consider the fact that we were not briefed on anything of this earlier. It was only a last-minute briefing. Then how the fuck do you expect us to do it well? So what if we all had F&B experience? Well, at least the other F&B won't put the blame on us & tell us in a better tone what we've done wrong.
& letting the females head back to the hotel whereas the males are to stay back longer to help pack.
What *J did was, tell the males to clear/pack this & that AND he just stood there to smoke.
WTF IS THIS? You are damn fucking gay please. You're not a man at all. Even if we are to do all the shit jobs, at least have some courtesy to treat us better. Prick faggot.
Probably not Hilton _|_. I think _|_ should be to *J. You should just go & get bang by a car.

I'd rather work for Ritz Carlton & with no pay. At least they are very organized & they treat us alot better.

On a happier note, we did gain something there. KEPPEL BAY'S VIEW WAS SOOOO PRETTYYYYY. Especially outdoors at night! & the cakes were gooood, the cheesecake & hazelnut!

I am so physically tired & I'm in class now & am hungry & work at 7pm later.

Which room has no doors?

2009-10-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

If the above conversation is able to enlarge, please read the joke that Tam Jiande told me.
He is the Joke-Maker. If there's an award on this, he'll definitely be the champion.

Nevertheless, he is one of my friends who helped me the most during my depressed period.
Someone who tried his best to advice me, tried to cheer me up, helped me by analyzing my troubles.
He can be one of my long-term best guy friend, really. But this bugger always says that I'll have my other friends to do the job & he is just 'nothing'.
"PLEASE LOH. YOU NOT MY FRIEND MEH."
Joke-Maker + Bugger indeed.
I really thank you, Tam Jiande. You're really a good friend of mine :)

& also, I won't forget those that helped/visited me.
Example:
Girlfriends who were there to hear me pour all my sad issues & spending some time with me, consoling. & felt sorry for me to the extent of almost tearing too.
Punehto Chips who came down to Yishun to keep me company even though TY met with some hard issues as well.
*TY, let's try not to tear again when we're in public ok? Hahahhaha.
Bistro colleagues who were there to make me feel better even though not all of them know what I was caught up & troubled with. There's just too much attachments there to quit.
Poly mates such as E26C were there for me too. Seeing them everyday can really make you happy because of all the stupid jokes & craps that we always have.

Really guys. If any of you reads this, I want you all to know that you're all a part of me now.
I love you guys.

On a side note, I'm really worn out today. Why so? I'll tell you why.
First, school & it is already enough to wear you out.
Second, rushed to AMK post office to collect my parcel.
Third, met CP at Bishan for gym session.
Fourth, went to have yong tau foo for dinner at the Food Junction straight after gym.
Fifth, my piano lesson which I was late for.
Sixth, rushed to buy pens/stockings (For Hilton Banquet).
& finally! Went home!!

Whereas for tomorrow? I'll be leaving class early like 315pm, with some of my classmates for a Hilton Banquet & it is just for 1 day. 4pm-11pm. $6.50/hour.
Not bad already lei! I wasn't paid at all for my F1 Ritz Carlton at all!!!

& I will have to go school on Friday no matter what. & after which, I've work at 7pm-12am.
Then on Saturday, 12pm-10pm BISTRO. & not forgetting, I think 1 of my facilitators & some E26C mates will be heading down to Bistro for meal & chill session too. So, OF COURSE I SERVE THEM WHAT.

This entire week, is tedious for me.
& I have my practicum UT 1 next Wednesday! Oh my..
How time flies..

2009-10-20T20:29:00.001+08:00

Go away. Stop haunting me.
Leave me alone..

I just can't help it whenever I pass by the playground, stadium near my block.
Or even, to AMK/Marina Square/Esplanade.

Back to work lah.

Accounting !@#$%^&

2009-10-19T20:57:00.001+08:00

Only the 3rd lesson of Accounting & it literally killed me today.
Considering the fact that I've got no POA foundation, I managed to complete the work assigned. But with the help of my beloved classmates (E26C) of course.
Today, it made me speak much vulgarities than usual.
I'm a person who gets stress very easily.

& today's interview was ______. Bloody nervous before entering the room because my DHHM programme chair was inside as well, & not forgetting a video camera. Me & my other 2 pretty classmates & 2 other selected people were nervous as well. Who won't!? I wonder how the result will turn out. Awww....

Speaking of which, this is the 3rd week of school. Time is passing REAL fast when school started. I cannot believe how fast time is going. But the good thing is, it keeps me busy. & considering the fact that I'm packed this entire week. Especially after school Thursday & to Hilton for a banquet job till probably, 12am? & it's a must to come school the next day no matter how tired I am. Just have to spam myself with lots of coffee & I'll be fine. Says SOH.
Plus, I've to work 7pm-12am on Friday. & 12pm-10pm on Saturday.
So, the only time that I can sleep all I want will be Sunday.
Uhhh, I've got nothing to say about that though.

& AFTER this week, my birthday will be on the Saturday. Like WOW, time is really fast that I'm not prepared at all. Club club club!
Funny thing, I may club in future but I won't drink. Good sign. No? Yes?

A little update, my mom + Cousin & me signed up for Yoga!!!
My brother will be leaving on the 16th December or so, to Canada for 4 months.
There may be an overseas trip with my course & facilitators but nothing has been confirmed though.
My mom & Auntie may be going overseas by just themselves.
Oh man, why is everyone leaving...

Lastly, WHEN IS MY ACCOUNTING TEXTBOOK ARRIVING. I NEED IT NOW NOW NOW.

2009-10-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

Accounting now.
Bye.

2009-10-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

Just some photos taken on Friday.
The rest are in FB.

Zouk's music sucked. Or probably I wasn't in that type of genre.
Phuture's was the sex. & probably because it was my virgin time so I don't know what is great music. But the music was really the blast & it was super packed.
& I didn't drink because I loathe the taste of alcohol now. Beer was easier for me to gurp down though. LOL.

2009-10-17T23:21:00.001+08:00

It feels like I haven't been home for a long time but it's just 1 night.
A night, I really enjoyed myself. With blasting music, great company, getting high on the dance floor. Now I know how Clubbing is. & I like it. In fact, I want to go again.
There has been more than 1 plan made with friends on Clubbing.
Clubbing addict? No.
Probably just a frequent OR occasional. But Occasional is the wiser choice.
However the annoying part is that I've to use my friend's IC to get in. I want 31st to arrive fast. God damn it. I hate this type of fear feeling.
On a side note, it helped me to forget about things & I feel better.

I only had 3 hours of sleep before I went for work today. & I am looking very 'zombie-like' now. Plus luckily I had to work till 6pm today instead of 10pm because of some cock-ups. But I'm grateful for it! Hee!
I was practically half-asleep half-awake when I met my family in Town & shopping around Taka. So, I'll go hit the sacks now.
& my mom found out that I'm still doing online shopping because she saw the Registered article paper on my table. Oh no...

I just realised that I have appointments everyday after school this week. Holy...

2009-10-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

Stop being Emo! You know clearly that he doesn't even give a fuck about you anymore. So why should you even feel so affected by it!
Fuck. I feel so fucking weak. God damn it.
Sam, just stop... Don't tear.

Exercising seems to be the only way to distract my mind away from this.
GYMMING LATER.

2009-10-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER :/

I think this song is the interpretation of what my heart feels right now.

Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry
All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohh

You're not sorry no no ohh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

You're not sorry, no no ohh

I'm way past depressed stage & am moving on to happy stage.
When I say it's over, it will really be over.
Since you're not being honest & choose to avoid me, then I guess there's nothing I can do because I've done all that I can throughout this 1 year+. Think about it. How many times has it been when you just left me in the heartbroken stage?
I just hope that you will soon realise that avoiding isn't going to help anything at all. & when you have a whole new r/s in the future, please be more honest & share your thoughts to the future girl.
You can dislike/hate me after reading what I typed but I guess I can't really be bothered anymore as I've used up all my strength to salvage it. Just think on what do you really want before taking action.
So, I'm giving up. If this is the outcome that you want, well congrats. You got it.
But just remember that I love you.

I just need more time to handle this & by then, I'll be a new & happy person again.

2009-10-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

I'm going to head out on Friday night & enjoy myself TTM. Who cares about turning 18 or not?
I reckon I'll be looking quite zombie-like when I work on Saturday. Well, whatever!!
See you girls.
I have a sudden urge to play Mahjong.

On a happier note, I'm losing weight!! YAY!
Plus, I am not falling sick. Double yayness.

2009-10-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

Another sweet thing :)))

It is not the time for me to fall sick. DO NOT FALL SICK SAM.

2009-10-13T09:22:00.000+08:00

Another one yet! Thank you Peishan! You all are really sweet!
Just a small little drawing can make me happy & feel better.
Really, it's cuteeeee :D

On a side note, I don't want to fall sick! I cannot afford to fall sick!
Stop sneezing!

2009-10-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

The more I look at this, the more touched I feel even though it is just a small little cute cartoon on a piece of paper.
Thank you Miss Mok! Even though you drew in less than 2minutes, but still I really appreciate it. & girl, I don't want you to even put any blame on yourself. You won't be involved in this. So, please don't alright?
I will be fine.
I hope..

I can't sleep even though I am god-damn tired.
My mind isn't listening. It is just, revolving around a solution.

2009-10-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

I'm glad to have friends to hear my troubles.
You all, are my pillars of strength. Without you all, I don't know what I'll do.
Really, I feel like hugging each & every one of you all right now.
Thank you all for being with me. I love you all.

& Yuan, we'll be able to do this together. We must. Girl power! Haha!

Back to school tomorrow. The thing which fears me is, what if I'm being questioned about it.
What will I say? How will I react? How am I suppose to reply?
I hope I can handle my emotions. I was practically "dying" when working during Friday & Saturday.
That particular sentence or that 3 words (To be specific) hurts so bad to the extent that I will have the urge to tear every single time I read or say it out.
Especially when I'm alone or at home. I need to be out everyday.

This entire matter, is just very ironic.

Another thing to add on, I've been drinking alot of water recently but I'm having a sore throat now. So weird.

2009-10-12T12:59:00.000+08:00

I need to be around people. I really need to.
At this very moment, MIA seems to be the best way for me.
I won't be facing questions on what happened in this way.

2009-10-11T02:23:00.000+08:00

I seem to have lost my appetite over everything.

2009-10-10T01:22:00.001+08:00

........
It just has to get more & more numb.

2009-10-08T13:50:00.001+08:00

I always thought I'll never be with you again.
But I thought wrong.
We are together :)))))))

1st Day of Semester 2

2009-10-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

Accounting wasn't as simple as I thought. I swear, I was almost overwhelmed by it today.
I realised that Semester 2 modules are not as "easy-going" as compared to Semester 1.
I guess this is when total concentration comes into place.
But with all that pressure from the "upper management", it isn't going to be fun. They've become much more stricter than before.
I know we're the 1st batch of DHHM students from RP. But must it be till this extent? Well, I suppose it has to be. It must be.
That's how competitive the society is. Or rather, Singapore.

& my legs feel so "jelly-like" after all that running.
I'm starving now so Imma go have my dinner now & revise aftermath.

NEW MOON

2009-10-05T09:45:00.000+08:00

I CANNOT WAIT. I'LL TELL MY MOM TO BOOK THE TICKETS ON THE VERY 1ST DAY THAT IT IS RELEASED OR THE SNEAK PREVIEW.
GV, GOLD CLASS. How does that sound? :>

Back on routine

2009-10-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

My usual routine will be back this coming Monday.
School work gym, etc. I think I'll be more busy & definitely more worn out this semester.
Work hard & minimize using the chance of skipping lessons! My GPA is shit.

Whereas for work, my usual schedule on Friday nights & Saturdays are back.
& I guess the issue on me not knowing that I got to work on Friday night, it shouldn't be too big of a problem. Spoke with Mr.Han about it though he was rather grumpy at the start of his shift.
I have to admit that he is quite a good person to talk to relating to the hotel industry.

I am contemplating on what to do on my actual birthday! I know clubbing is for sure. I already have 2 groups of friends that wants me to go.
First, me & Juliet & girlfriends! Another is with work colleagues!
While the other cliques, nothing is said yet so..... Please don't blame me if I can't make it on my actual birthday ya! I still love you all & will try to make time. But do understand that I've got school too :)))
There's still my family & Poly mates. I don't know how to plan because it's during school period but luckily my birthday falls on a Saturday. Totally relieved by that though.
I really need to plan soon. Like, really dead soon.
But just on a negative note, I've my piano theory exam in the early morning on the actual day.

Another thing to add on, I'm moving on once & for all. This huge burden has been lifted off & gone. A little more time & I'll be totally over it. I can finally feel happy from the inside & not fake a smile on the outside :)))))

I think I'm signing off now as I'm going with my parents in the morning to book air tickets for my brother who is flying off on the 16th December to Canada for 4months regarding his Uni studies. 4 MONTHS!! :(
I'd love to go overseas to continue my studies!

Ah bye!

Back at Blogger!

2009-10-03T14:11:00.000+08:00

I'm back at Blogger! Feel more comfortable here or LJ rather than Tumblr.
School is starting in 3 days' time. I feel rather prepared for it.
& I think my sense of responsibility is becoming bad to the extent that I don't call my workplace to check on the current week schedule for my shifts.
Yes, I didn't know I had to work today till Huixian called me. Had to fake an MC that I do not like. I feel bad, really bad. I'll be honest to my manager tomorrow if I see him.
I am so sorry Bistro.....

I took a personailty test. Here is my results:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I feel this, rather true!
Try it humans!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Moved again?

2009-08-31T13:32:00.000+08:00

Hello.

I'm going to try out Tumblr & hopefully I'll stick with it without jumping back to either Blogshop or LJ.
Although I've much difficulties with Tumblr.

Catch me there ;)

http://sa-mmo.tumblr.com

!!!

2009-08-29T07:04:00.000+08:00

I seriously hate the feeling of being used OR seems to be.
I hate guys with no sense of responsibility when they ought to have but yet, they rely on girls for help.
What makes you think that I'll be so free to inform you on the latest updates? I'LL BE AT SYDNEY FOR GOD'S SAKE.
So does that mean I'll have to rush & check on the emails right after I'm back in Singapore?
Did you ever spare a thought for me? Have you ever considered if I'd be willing to do it, for you?
Maybe we're one of the closest in class, fine then.
However, that doesn't mean I should be getting this type of feeling from you OR treated for granted & assuming that I can do any flavours requested by you. Do you get what I am trying to say?

I chose not to confront you & tell you about this. Because I know in the end, you'll just avoid/ignore or whatever.
Just think if it is beneficial for me to approach you on this. Think on what you will reply me if you happen to know about this.
If you happen to be reading this entry, then come & talk to me about it if you want.

I do not know if you're doing this with an intention. All I know is, this is what I feel now.
Be it if I'm too sensitive or what, well it's starting to get more obvious.
This is what I feel towards you now.
I bet you can sense it too. Only idiots will act like fucking blur-tards.
I don't want to mention names. If you're smart, you'd know that it's you.
This may more or less affect the friendship, I clearly understand that. But if this is what is going to be in the friendship between me & you, then I'd rather not. This isn't how a friendship should be.
Maybe it's just me, or you. Think about how you've been treating me then. If you claim that you know me VERY well, think again.
I never thought that I understand you very well.
At least not well enough for me to self-proclaim you as my best friend.
Probably you said it just to fu yan me OR just for fun? Who knows.

Secondary school friends are still the most reliable ones.
There are some in Poly too, I met a few in class or in ex-classes.
I'm grateful that I met these people <3

I'm going to prepare to meet the guys at AMK for movie & pool now.

SOME ONLY.

2009-08-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

This is only SOME of the photos I took from my FB. There is more!
& I am delighted that Blogger is working at this moment.

A side note, I feel that a huge burden has been lifted off. I feel so free to the extent that I will not be emo-ing for quite some time. IT HAS BEEN LONG EVER SINCE I HAD THIS FEELING!
I WILL BE A HAPPY GIRL. HEHE.

Some photos of E26C. Shiok class, really.
It will be inhuman to ever forget this class.
I love you all even though there may be some conflicts or dislikes. But still, <3

The final day of our UTs & as a class.

The days when I still had my long fringe!

Short fringe already!

I was wearing a hairband. I look weird, I know.

FINALLY. GLADYS'S 18th BIRTHDAY.
Went to her place to surprise her, together with her polymates too.
Close to 30+ people or so.
Below is a photo of the amount of people.
All managed to fit into her house.
Power anot?

When the Punehtos got bored & being thrown into her room.
Photos of course!
More at FB.

We headed to Town aftermath while Gladys went with her polymates :)
4 of us did manicure & pedicure at FEP.
Then settled our dinner at Bistro.
I was surprised that it wasn't crowded on A Sunday.
Talking about Bistro, I am missing my colleagues very much!!!

I forgot when was this but it wasn't long after Gladys's birthday.
We met up at City Hall, New York New York for a combo birthday dinner for Gladys & Mingzhen!
Gladys came to meet me at Woodlands & we met the rest at the restaurant itself.
I remembered it was quite an emo day after dinner.
Rooftop at Esplanade with guy talks. One of the bestest place for such talks.

Hahahaha. I think this photo is funny.

These 2 photos above are THE most Epic ones EVER.
UGLY!!!!

Me likes this!

Sister means sister.

I love you girls very very much!! <3

LOL!

TADA! THE END.
I AM FINALLY DONE AFTER SO LONG.

Not forgetting, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY WONG WEIHAO!!!
AND ALSO, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHUN SIMIN!

I shall get some rest now as I'll be meeting the girls afterwards at Town!
& Friday morning, Ritz Carlton site visit while night time with Chris & CP at AMK for POOL!!
& a confirmed flying off on next Wednesday to Sydney.
8th & 9th, training days at Ritz Carlton for F1.
14th - 22nd will be back at Bistro work!
24th till 27th OR 28th for actual F1 event.
29th - 1st October E26C chalet!
5th October SCHOOL REOPENS! :S

& some other appointments that hasn't been confirmed yet.
W16G, please settle a date for steamboat if it is STILL on.

So you see, my holidays are rather filled up! Sad I know, but I like!

CIAO.

HOLIDAYS

2009-08-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

MY HOLIDAYS ARE OFFICIALLY HERE.
YOU ALL HAVE NO IDEA HOW DELIGHTED I AM.
I WILL BE SO ENJOYING MYSELF.
AHHHHH, SIBEI HAPPY JIU DUI.
I'LL BE AT TOWN THE ENTIRE DAY ON THURSDAY. IT HAS BEEN A ZILLION YEARS!!

Some stuffs that I've been thinking these few days.., & wondering too.
The significance of you to me, isn't as much as before.
How? The urge of finding a birthday present for you seems to have faded off.
However, I will still try to find one if possible.
Probably this, will mean the end of whatever that seems OR has been dragging on for way too long. OR maybe it was just a one-sided thing afterall. Who knows? No one knows what is in your head.
Seem to have changed into a new person. Someone whom I do not know anymore or, unable to read/chase after.
I'm tired. I think I've done enough.
I will not hold onto you anymore. I just need a little bit more time.
Do I still love you? I do not know.
Do I even still feel for you? I do not know too.
Then what about yourself?
Some questions that has to be answered before I set on a decision.
Don't come & go as & when you like because I won't be here for you forever.

One thing's for sure, You are a good boyfriend.

Ahhhh! It's 1115pm now! I'm going to replenish on my beauty sleep!
I woke up at 6am today! Oh My God, just like secondary school times.
K BYE!

Motivation

2009-08-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

Some sources of motivation. There's many more.

I should study now.

SYDNEY

2009-08-24T09:39:00.000+08:00

Breakfast: Tuna bread. 1 serving of Meiji's coffee milk. 1 green apple.
Lunch: Shen mian. 1/2 cup of milk tea.
Tea: 1 serving of Marigold peach & mango yoghurt. Few mouths of Chrysanthemum tea. Few pinches of dried cranberries. Water.
Dinner: Hmmm, maybe I should skip it.

I will burn all of these away tomorrow morning.

I am dying for my UTs to be over & that will happen when it strikes 6pm on this coming Tuesday. That is when my holidays officially start.

I was at Chinatown quite early today. Definitely not my kind of place because I hate it when guys make sounds like rats & looks at you as if you're something nice to eat. ZZZZZZ.
But I don't deny that the food there is good. Better than the ones at AMK.
Anyway, me & my cousin was contemplating between Tokyo & Sydney. Korea is definitely a big no because we went there TWICE.
So, we ended up choosing Sydney & my mom + my dad reserved 2 places too!
It's pretty expected of them as my mom is always very ready to leave her work behind to just escape from here. While my dad..., he follows my mom. & my brother..., he has school.
It's going to be a free & easy trip. A rather short getaway though. Or should I say, super short.
Departing on the 2nd September & back on either 6th/7th. Like I said, super short.
If it isn't for my Ritz Carlton F1 training that is taking place on the 8th, I would have been away much longer!
Oh well, this is better than nothing. Isn't it?

Some photos here. I wanted to upload some of those that are in FB. But FB seems pretty cocky lately.

What I saw when I just left home today. Cat in a basket.

Macha shake w/ macha gelato.

Ultimate bombzz for people with Green tea fetish!

On a side note, I have yet to study for my final last 2 UTs.

TV

2009-08-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

I'm currently watchng Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children on Channel 5 now, although I've watched it many times.
COOL SHOW, I LIKE.
Tempting me to play the game over again. But I won't do that, I don't have alot of time in my hands now.
Culinary & HTM UTs is more important.

I'm sleepy. I'll go sleep after this movie finishes & will wake up early for swimming tomorrow.
Ciao, for now. As Blogger is having moodswings again.
This is forcing me to switch back to Livejournal.

& just to be random, I love the clothes at this blogshop!! I am sure to eye on at least 1 item in each collection! Their quality of the clothes is good & they provide backorders on selected/hot pieces for every collection. Me like!

http://bonitochico.livejournal.com/

Edited/
Change in plans, I'll postpone my swimming to a later time because I'll be heading to Chinatown to check on the availability for another overseas trip! Well, at least I'm out of Singapore. HEHE.
But I shall not hold high hopes because it will bring greater disappointments.

I'm gonna go sleep now because I've to wake up as early as 830am later!!!

Like, finally

2009-08-22T15:36:00.000+08:00

I love this video. Still as touching as ever!

Blogger is working again! But I'm going to sleep for my UT that is taking place on a SATURDAY.

GOODNIGHT!

I WILL do a proper update when Blogger isn't having moodswings.

...

2009-08-19T15:20:00.000+08:00

I am stuck on you.
I don't know what else to do.
There has to be a time when I forget about you.
Just a mere 2 months, can leave me hanging like this.

"Can I still say, I love you?"

2009-08-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

I've been heading out recently & photos are piling up!
I'm broke. I don't seem to have time to work. Life is so sad!
I'm in the holiday mood but my final UTs has not started at all! Oh dang.
& I'm still going to go out after school tomorrow. Oh my goshhhhh.
I'll do a proper update soon.
Good Night!

NO $$$

2009-08-17T14:17:00.000+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE. HELL.
I SHALL SURVIVE ON JUST $10/DAY. I SHALL NOT EAT IN SCHOOL.
I'VE VERY IMPORTANT STUFFS TO BUY. OMG.
SLAP YOURSELF SAM. WHY MUST YOU SPEND SO MUCH.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY 18TH GLADYS!
SEE YOU TOMORROW! :D

Macs

2009-08-16T09:12:00.000+08:00

Breakfast + Lunch: 1/2 Luo Mai Kai. 2 mouths of Chrysanthemum tea. 1 cup of orange juice.
Tea: Water. 1/2 durian cake.
Dinner: UNSURE

Seems like my appetite is cutting down. Good or bad?

That day, my class happily ordered Macs & I ordered my Filet O Fish burger, I was eating it like a happy girl.
Yesterday, I was at the AMK Drive-Thru Macs with Mr Wong for overnight studying. I ordered my usual & ended up throwing away half of the Filet O Fish burger but I finished my fries & green tea.
& now, I am officially sick of Macs & prolly because the fishy smell that was present in the burger.

Got home at about 6plus this morning. Slept like a pig till 330pm. Mr Wong predicted right. I woke up at 3plus indeed!
Overnight studying seems to work more for me as compared to during the day.

There have been some cock ups for the New York trip. Seems like there's a possibility that I won't be flying off on the 25th. & that leaves me thinking, am I in the wrong for suggesting to check for the availability of the flights & to just confirm the seats when almost all have been fully booked? Isn't it normal for a human being to be unhappy when everything has been planned properly & yet, you can't get hold of a flight. & when you found it, you just have to wait for another day for the other agent to repond back regarding the SQ or direct flights to New York, & the next day, the chance of flying to New York is gone again.
Tell me then. Am I in fault when I said clearly to just get hold of the seats & not wait for the agent to respond back?
& isn't it logical for me to be unhappy about it when there's a chance but yet, it's gone the next minute?
Who will be in the right state of mind to still be happy when there are no fucking flights to fucking take you to your destination when your schedule is so fucking packed & you're already trying your fucking best to adjust your timing for it?
Seems like adults don't consider the fact that their children/niece do actually have a life of their own.
Thinking that I don't compromise at all? Look who is talking.
Go ahead, complain to my mom or tell even more family members on how I expressed my anger on phone with you that day. That's what you do best, no?
See if I even give the tiniest fucking damn at all.
Perhaps I was a little harsh on it. But I still texted to apologise.
The apology is for being harsh, NOT THAT I ADMIT I'M AT FAULT.
Nevertheless, a warmest thank you for spoiling my perfectly planned schedule for my coming holidays.

My head is starting to spin & I have yet to finish up my Marketing RJ.
I'll blog again soon.

Hair cut

2009-08-12T02:35:00.000+08:00

Breakfast: 1 chocolate bagel from bread society & 1 cup of orange juice
Late breakfast: 1/2 cup of chocolate milk tea w/o pearls

& now I feel like puking. The chocolate milk tea in school tastes diluted & it's not nice!!
So much for spoiling my appetite.

I look like how I was during Secondary school times.

Only then I realised, is all worth it?
My efforts & everything, to someone who doesn't seem to appreciate it a single bit.
Then why the more should I try even harder.
Maybe sometimes..., being hard-hearted seems to be the best way. Or the only way.
Tell me what exactly do you want.
Don't come & go because I'm not going to be here for you forever.

PH is the worst

2009-08-11T11:15:00.000+08:00

Breakfast: Sausage & egg McMuffin, 1 cup of orange juice
Lunch: -
Tea: Black pepper chicken noodle, 1 cup of milk tea & 1 scoop of vanilla I/C
Dinner: 1 cup of hot green tea

No output today because of red zone :(

I hate the crowd in Town.
Especially in Ion.

Did my haicut, like finally!
Trim quite alot & a change of hair colour!
I swear, I looked like a China doll when I stepped out of the salon. Probably because of my fringe.
I can predict that I'll be laughed at by my classmates tomorrow :(

I took some shots & want to upload it but Blogger isn't helping me.
Look like I'll have to do it either tomorrow or some other day then.

& I saw a very gorgeous agnes B. bag. Around $380 or so?
SO CHIO CAN!

Correction

2009-08-10T14:45:00.000+08:00

I played 30minutes of Volleyball with my cousins just now! It's been a long time ever since I touched the ball.
& played Basketball for awhile.
I'm better at Volleyball of course.
However, my body has to step into the red zone when I was in the midst of Volley-ing -.-

I AM FINALLY GOING FOR MY HAIR CUT + HAIR DYE TOMORROW AT WHEELOCK. OH YES!!!!

National Day

2009-08-10T06:56:00.000+08:00

Breakfast + Lunch: Duck rice & 1 cup of Yami yoghurt
Tea: 1 piece of chocolate cake & 1 serving of Marigold Peach Mango Yoghurt

I think I'll be consuming a little too much on dairy products today because I'll be heading over to my Dad's side for dinner & as well as to watch the NDP & Singapore Idol.
So, each family has to bring over something. & my Dad bought Ben N Jerry's!! How to resist?! LOL.
Well, see how full am I going to be.

No output today, sadly.
Seems like I've to go swimming again tomorrow! But I may be going to Ion with my mom tomorrow morning :D

I NEED A HAIRCUT & HAIRDYE ASAP.

'Last' day at work

2009-08-09T14:53:00.000+08:00

Breakfast: Luo Mai Kai, 1 cup of orange juice & 1 green apple.
Lunch + early dinner: Favourite Bistro Pasta with prawns & brocolli in aglio olio, 1 green apple & 1 can of soya bean milk.
Late dinner: A few spoons of hazelnut ice-cream.

Output: 9 hours of standing/walking/running.
Counted?

Wondering why I get to have ice-cream during late dinner? Well, we are very mischievous. HEHEHE.
I can sense that the girls at Bistro is having a 'buffet' in the kitchen now. LOL.
Well, my 1 month break starts now. I feel so free! It has been a zillion years ever since I felt free.
But I will not forget them. I will visit.

I've got many things on my mind now, but I don't know how to express it here. Maybe some other time.

I realised that I got my character from my Dad.
This is random but just some family issues.

I had enough of tearing or almost tearing. Very torturing indeed.
I want to stop this. I wish I can.

Untitled

2009-08-08T04:07:00.000+08:00

Breakfast: 1 piece of cake
Lunch: Rice w/ Tofu, Mushrooms & 2 small curry chicken drumsticks, 1 cup of milk tea w/o pearls
Snack: Loacker's Dark chocolate wafer biscuits
Dinner: Nothing except several cups of water at work

Output: 6 hours of standing or possibly running at work later.
Is this counted?

I think this is working for me :))))

A sad thing, Macau trip has been postponed to the end of this year. They should organise this more efficiently by not informing us since the date hasn't been confirmed. It's like, you being happy & on a later note, it crushes your happiness.
Therefore, I am free on the 16th-19th September, FOR NOW. Book me friends. HEHEHE.

Another devastating issue, my aunt's dog is seriously ill. I've watched this dog grow up ever since I was in Kindergarten or even before I was born. & I suppose it's due to his old age.
There's something growing in his stomach, just like what happened to my cousin's dog previously.
Now, this is a pure German Shepherd. He's a very good dog, very obedient. I love him in a way.
But he is going to leave us, leave this earth & somewhere else. I feel damn heartbroken about this.
I love dogs. I can even cry on the HK drama which is currently showing on channel 55, 8pm on weekdays. 当狗爱上猫. Or even, the Japanese movies such as, 10 promises to my dog, etc. It's touching on how the dog feels. Pets are so innocent.
So, may people who torture pets burn in hell.

Home alone

2009-08-07T06:34:00.000+08:00

Skipped school today. It will be the final time for this semester as next week is the last week for all the modules.
Swam 12 laps (I count to & fro as 1 lap) in the morning today. I hate it when 3 people have to swim within 1 lane & knowing that there's 2 people using it & yet the 3rd person has to squeeze in.

Morning (Before swimming): 1 piece of cake & 1/2 cup of orange juice
Walked to swimming complex & did the same back home.
Late morning (After swimming): 3/4 Sweetalk milk tea w/o pearls, 1 green apple, 3/4 cup of Peach Yami Yoghurt.
Lunch: Water only
Tea: Muffin (I was too hungry)
Dinner? I think yong tau foo. But it will make it seem as if I ate alot today.
Zomg, but I'm craving for Macs's filet O Fish!! HOW.

I'm in the midst of watching my HK drama show now & as well as doing my piano theory.
Life's great staying at home doing productive things, isn't it?
At least to me, it is.

& New York date has been confirmed (25th August) but have yet to book the air tickets. I am so excited & wish that time can zoom past the remaining weeks of school & the final UTs as well. On the 25th, I'll have 2 UTs. One of it starts at 830am while the other starts at 430pm. What am I going to do during the break!? It's very retarded, I'd rather get it done & over with asap!!
I really hope that NOTHING will go wrong that will lead to the cancellation of the New York trip. & I'll most probably bring along my laptop!
When I'm back on the 7th, this is when my 'peak period' arrives. Lots of activities planned & hopefully Macau trip with class will be confirmed but there hasn't been any Emails from the facilitators up till now.

Maybe I'll blog again at night.

MUST

2009-08-06T13:44:00.000+08:00

From tomorrow onwards, I will list down here, in this very space of what I consume everyday.
IT'S A MUST. I'm consuming too much!!!
& possibly, the output as well!

Confession

2009-08-02T15:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes.... I wonder why do I feel so god damn concern for you when you tell me about your thoughts/issues/problems.
This concern, I don't usually show it to any one.
But you. It's you. Always has been.
I'm praying so hard that you'll be able to persue/achieve your goal.
Because as long as you're truly happy, that's all that matters.

Photos photos

2009-07-31T11:48:00.000+08:00

21st July 2009:
AMK Hub with these 2 guys on that day for a movie & to treat CP his MACS meal (like finally).
& if I remembered correctly, I saw 2 people. 1, whom I totally saw. I guess the other one was 'ALMOST'. BUT lucky I didn't. If not I am really down on luck.
What a sight though.

22nd July 2009:
E26C photo day! I just happen to bring my camera along to school & there was 102 photos snapped! Hahaha.
More at FB.

Lastly, photos of me!!!

When I was really really bored at home one fine day....

I do this only when I'm very bored in class OR when I'm sitting at the corner.

My manager agreed to go with my schedule. Which is, I won't be working after the 8th August & I'll have a break from there till September. & throughout the entire September, I'll only be working just a mere 3 days (Non is weekends). So hooray! I do not have to give my letter!

I think I only managed to walk the basements of Ion. The highest I went was to Coffee Bean to get my Matcha Green Tea I/B, that's all! I didn't know Coffee Bean was there. HEHE. Somehow I feel that Coffee Bean's drinks is much better than Starbucks.
I was just amazed by how Royce designed their store. Very unique! I like!
I have yet walk the upper levels!! Though I reckon it's all the higher-end boutiques.
Luckily I'm requested off on Saturday! I know I've been saying this alot of times that I'm off on a Saturday. But it's because I NEVER get off! Even if I did, it's only like 2 out of 10 chances.
I deserve a well break, don't I?
& one more thing, I am getting sick of Bistro's food..

I need to sleep early during school days. I need a tan. I need my holidays & entertainment pleaseeeeeee.
Lucky I've facial with my mom on Sunday! WOO. I think my complexion is getting better! :D I am happy!
I lack of many things such as bags, heels, sandals, etc. I need to shop. I NEED MY PAY.

Imma go do my RJ & my piano theory now. As my theory exam is ON my birthday! What a nice date eh!?
What am I going to do on my birthday? I think Charm will bring me go clubbing!!!
& I think that the Global Kitchen over at Pan Pacific Hotel, IS GOOOOOOD. & the food is quite nice too! :D
It has the 1 for 1 offer for dinner! Worth every penny!

FINALLY.. BUT NO.

2009-07-31T00:55:00.000+08:00

Hi! I can upload photos now!! BUT SADLY, I DO NOT HAVE THE MOOD TO. HEHEHE.

So just 2 snapshots of my schedule during August & September. I didn't realise that I was quite packed.

& I should be going to NEW YORK WHEN MY HOLIDAY STARTS!!! For about 2 weeks, I think. OH LAAAA. HOHO.

Then MACAU TRIP WITH MY COURSE.

OH LAAAA. HOHO. x2

& maybe another trip at the end of the year to either Korea/Japan/Switzerland!!!

OH LAAAA. HOHO. x3

& This saturday, meet up with W16G CLASSMATES!! FINALLY NOT WORKING ON A SATURDAY. WAHAHAHHA.

OH LAAAA. HOHO. x4

& FINALLY, ANOTHER E26C CHALET AT THE TANAH MERAH RESORT. But it's somewhere at the end of the holidays. BUT STILL :DDDD

OH LAAAA. HOHO. x5

Which means, I can't work during September. I feel happy yet guilty.

I was almost 95% certain that I want to quit but somehow, I'm back to being unsure again.

I'm heading down to Town after school today. FINALLY TO TOWN FOR LEISURE & NOT WORK. But I'll drop by Bistro to discuss about my schedule for September with my manager. Hahhhha. ION BABYYYYYYY!

My dog!

Lastly, I've been pondering for so long on what to get as a present for a guy! Any ideas???

I've received a few good ideas from my class. But I want more pleaseeeeeee.

Ok, I'm going to listen class now. IT'S MARKETING :DDDD

Exercise

2009-07-28T13:17:00.000+08:00

My thighs is fucking fat.
I need to go jogging starting from tomorrow.
Arms are flabby.
Life is so so so so sad.
Conclusion, I'm a fat lady.
I will go back to 48kg.

& Blogger seems to be of a problem when I'm at home but NOT when I'm in school.
So I guess I'll blog again when I'm in class, IF I have the time.

Another day

2009-07-27T11:29:00.000+08:00

Blogger is being a bitch once again.
Looks like I'm going to update tomorrow or something.
Good day everyone!

Work.

2009-07-26T17:00:00.000+08:00

Days at work, is the worst. My shift was extended. 12pm-12am.
I will go crazy if Bistro doesn't get new people soon.
It's only a matter of time till I officially give up & break down, which I almost did.
Seems like the chances of me, submitting my resignation letter increased.
I can't find any other words to describe, other than fucked up.
I don't blame my colleagues or whoever was working with me. I blame the management.
They take a zillion years to hire new staffs. What do they take us for? Super robots? -.- We are human beings. We feel pain too.
My legs isn't feeling very good. I wonder how long will this go on.

But yet, I do have second thoughts due to the super shortage of staffs.
& yet, my manager said if anyone is unhappy working there, we can just leave.
So how? To choose feelings attached there & to not leave my colleagues to 'fight war' at this period of time OR to just ignore everything, submit resignation letter & be cold-blooded?
I do not know.
Screw this. I totally loathe situations when I cannot choose & so many factors have to be considered.

I just want to go out & have fun. & not to spend my weekends serving people. I want to be served damn it. I don't even have the chance to walk the entire Ion!!! VERY FRUSTRATING!! Deprived of shopping.
I want clubbing. LOL. WHAT A THING TO SAY FROM ME.
Imma go hit the sacks now. I shall do a nice entry when I wake up, I HOPE.

CAPITAL POST.

2009-07-25T16:49:00.000+08:00

FINALLY I CAN BLOG.
BLOGGER HAS BEEN A PRICK BY NOT ALLOWING ME TO BLOG THESE FEW DAYS.
BUT NOW, IT'S LATE & I'VE GOT WORK AT 12PM-10PM LATER.
I WISH I CAN GO ON MC BUT SADLY, 2 STAFFS ARE ALREADY ON MC TOMORROW.
SO I CANNOT DO THAT. I CANNOT BE SELFISH. SO, I AM GOING TO GO WORK TOMORROW.
THEREFORE, I WILL BLOG AFTER WORK OR SUNDAY.
I BET YOU ALL CAN SENSE THE HUGE RELUNCTANCE IN ME.
HOW I USED TO LOVE BISTRO, GOING TO WORK WHEN I WAS STILL USING LIVEJOURNAL.
WHAT A CONTRADICTION.

& A LITTLE UPDATE, I AM GOING TO SUBMIT MY RESIGNATION LETTER VERY SOON. SOME TIME NEXT WEEK I GUESS.

TODAY IS THE MOST SCREWED UP DAY AT WORK. REJECTED 3 QUEUES OF CUSTOMERS, IF I REMEMBERED CORRECTLY. & TO THINK THAT WE WERE ALL HOPING THAT THE CROWD WILL BE LESSENED BY QUITE ALOT DUE TO THE OPENING OF ION.
BUT NO, IT HAS TO GET WORSE THEN BEFORE BY BRINGING IN MORE CROWD. & WE ARE SO FUCKING SHORT-HANDED. I ALMOST WANTED TO GIVE UP.
I DON'T WANT TO WORK DURING MY WEEKENDS. I WANT TO GO HAVE FUN.
I'VE BEEN UNABLE TO DO ALOT OF THINGS DUE TO WORK.
BUT I WILL HAVE NO INCOME ANYMORE. I CAN ONLY RELY ON DAILY ALLOWANCE WHICH IS $10/DAY. DOES ANYONE HAVE FAITH IN ME THAT I CAN SURVIVE W/O A JOB?
I HAVE DOUBTS MYSELF TOO.

LASTLY, I AM FAT. I HATE THE FATS. IF ONLY I CAN JUST SURVIVE BY JUST DRINKING WATER & PEACH YAMI YOGHURT FOREVER.
MOTIVATE ME TO EXERCISE, SOMEONE ANYONE.

2ND LASTLY, I'VE BEEN ABLE TO SMELL YOU. EVEN NOW AT THIS VERY MOMENT, IN MY ROOM. IT'S ALMOST LIKE YOU ARE JUST BESIDE ME.
WHAT A WEIRD THING.

I AM SORRY FOR THE CAPITAL WORDS POST. I AM LAZY TO HIT THE CAPS BUTTON ALTHOUGH IT IS JUST STRETCHING MY FINGERS.
BUT I JUST FEEL THAT I DON'T WANT TO CARE ABOUT ANYTHING NOW.
GOOD BYE. IMMA GO HIT THE SACKS NOW.

Stressed

2009-07-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

Culinary UT is going to be a killer, I swear.
I'm feeling so stressed about it. It ruining my mood. From normal, it became super bad.
I am tired & I want to hit the sacks but I am going to feel guilty.
Damn.

Boredom

2009-07-21T02:43:00.000+08:00

I can have this everyday. I think I have a fetish for Korean food :D

I'm freezing because the air-con is blowing almost directly at me. I'm feeling cold & I did not bring my jacket. GG.
I think I'll be going for a haircut on Sunday with my cousin at Wheelock. Well, see if she'll make an appointment. She's off today till Wednesday!! T.T
I am very sick of school. I want my holidays now. I've overseas plans with my family already.

Look at the snow!!!

I want to go for High Tea. I want Coffee Bean's Matcha Green Tea Ice-Blended. I want Goodwood Park Hotel's durian puff!!
ION is opening tomorrow!!!! Zomg!
I hate the fact when I am in Town & I cannot go shopping. But I am working.
When I see people heading to Town for entertainment, leisure, shopping & while I have to work. That is very irritating.
LIFE IS SAD TO THE MAX.

I got so bored till I snapped 3 photos of myself in class.

I cannot smile much because it will be retarded to smile to the laptop when I'm in class.

I'm waiting for Miss Mok to upload the photos taken last Friday!!!!

& a recommendation, do catch Harper's Island if you're fond of mystery shows!